♥Relaxing

Saturday, December 5, 2009Y

I was told that i couldn't wear contacts forever and ever. ): Is this what i deserve? I am feeling so.. idk. Indescribable. I have to continue living and wearing my damn specs like forever. Idk how did things worsen that i have to live with my specs like every minute, and second. Just because the doc made a careless mistake at that time, i had to bear the consequences, of not wearing contacts ever again. i know how i look like wearing specs, okay. It's duper ugly. ): To think that i have to wear it forever. Even changing specs means wearing specs, so it doesn't make any difference to me. What am i to do now? I really can't accept the fact. CAN'T. Seriously, it's very unfair.

Lord, can you feel and understand what i am going through now? There's no one i can turn upon to, because everyone thinks that this is such a minor thing, and i am making a big fuss out of it. Lord, the things that i have gone through in the past 6 months, i know you understand. But i really couldn't figure out, how perfect this is for me. Lord, please give me the wisdom to understand that all these are for my good. No matter how unwilling i am, i have to accept it. Lord, i am really very unhappy that things turned out this way. Help me, Lord. Please don't ignore me. I can't afford it. Really, cannot.

ends at Saturday, December 05, 2009

Friday, December 4, 2009Y

Man, it has been so long since i last blogged, right. Hahaha, gonna get busy the next week! ;D finally! HAHA. I have been lazing around the house for the past month. -.- SO BORING! HAHA. And, im gonna sew the christmas hats this sun! HAHA. kill off time! >:)

Anw, the reason why i wanted to blog now, was because something started off, just because of me. Yes, i gues every gz-er reading my blog will know. ( sec 4) Now i really wonder if i have did the right thing. Things are not getting better anyhow, and it's even getting worse. Well, i just hope to say sorry to everyone for starting off something like that. I really didnt mean to. I just wanted to help. I am really sorry, for doing something like this at this moment, when we are not be able to see each other every week after school reopens. Never ever the same again. we will never be able to play gz and have lessons the same again. Because what has to go has gone, and what's left behind have to stay.

Hmm, i guess i dont wanna make this a really sad post, so i'll blog about something. Uh! im really scared for taking back N level results. It's getting nearer and nearer. And i am totally not sure whether i can do well enough to PASS. ): Anyway, i am quite excited to sew their names on te christmas hats! :D HAHA

ends at Friday, December 04, 2009

Sunday, November 8, 2009Y

6 more days to sarawak. seriously, idk whether this trip would be a fun one or not. Haha. don't really feel very excited for it mann. ): And, i think my dad can fetch me to the airport and back home. :D which is a good thing, so i dont need to give more trouble to cas's dad! HAHA. (: Im so happy i dont need to go church cos im gonna miss it! :D I know i sound bad, but too bad! Haha. i think my sunday sch classmates are very what. some are nice when they choose to be. but some are really ignoring until like they dont even care. Haha. I was pulling a ling face throughout the whole lesson, cos yx doesn't wanna start lesson, and im like there stoning for 1/2 hour or smth. -.-

I hope i can buy the things that im supposed to buy at Sarawak! HAHA. If not i'll be like so miserable! Anw, i hope this will be a fun trip though. (:

ends at Sunday, November 08, 2009

Friday, October 16, 2009Y

I am so bored, so i've decided to BLOG. HAHA. I guess it's quite obvious that Ns have ended, and I AM FREE! HAHA. Tmr going BBQ with grandmother and family. Maybe got other relatives also. Not sure. Haha. I am alone at home now luh. WTH. So scary! I just saw a quite fake ghost photo, but im still scared of it. OMG. Help me please. HAHA

I hope my eyes doesn't get red after eating those BBQ food tmr. ): But most probably WILL. Cos they surely add damn a lot of butter like it's water or smth. HAHA. So i'll go church like that AGAIN. )': IDk if i should go see a doc for my eyes. Cos it has been like that for 5 months. Nov then just nice half a year. Can you believe it?! I wore SPECTACLES through out the five months leh! OMG. DAMN UGLY PLEASE! HAHA. But i also can't wear my contacts. ): I scared later i go see doc then after the eye drop expire, the red will come back again. Then i forever dont need to wear contacts alr. Somemore my contacts are getting quite old alr huh, so i need to decide whether i still wanna buy another pair anot. Cos if my eyes doesn't heal, then i can't wear! OMG. Someone please help me. Tell me whether i should see a doc. Consider all difficulties i have and tell me? But i bet no one will tell luh, cos my blog is like damn dead. AHHA. So, can't really blame anyone!

ends at Friday, October 16, 2009

Friday, September 11, 2009Y

GZ SEC 4FAREWELL '09

OKay, idk what's wrong with safari. So irritating! Now i have to retype everything. -.- I'll just cut it short. OKay, sec 4farewell was quite successful,i think. HAHA, at least i think they put in more effort than we did last year. HAHA. All the items were nice. :D THANK YOU SEC 1-3s. HAHA. And we played water games for the first time in history. HAHAH. So special right, our batch. But YT and YJ got scolding from mrs ding and miss wong or smth, if im not wrong. Haha, i feel so bad!

If i had known that earlier,then i shouldn't have played. See lah. that SL! Keep chasing me! HAHA. I run so fast from parade square all the way one round to canteen, then to general office leh. HAHA. As you all know, i don't exercise, so i have not much stamina, run like that my energy ALL USED UP OKAY! That's why i stopped running, then SL and yong le caught up with me. THEN SL POUR THE WHOLE BUCKET OF WATER FROM MY HEAD TO TOE LEH! The reason why i stopped running is because parade suqare's floor run very fast and hard then your feet willbe very pain, cos the floor extremely rough. SO my feet was damn pain lah, so i raise my white flag. HAHAHA! Then i became so wet lah! The water went into my ear. And when i was running, this gracious! SO ANGRY! SHE'S CHASING ME BEHIND LEH! HHAA, then she cannot catch up! COsi run very fast. Aiya, so wasted. I can be tracker alr. HAHA. Just kidding! :D Same Zheng how can bully each other, huh! Hahaa, but it's okay luh, im not so petty! IT'S ONLY A GAME! :D :D

The presents the sec 3 gave was really very nice, but i took the wrong cert. AHHAHA! I took dora's one. Cos it's on the floor what! Then i see this one nearest to me, so should be mine, but in the end is Dora's! HAHA, return her next time. Dont know who took mine luh! In short, the sec3s were very nice,sec 2s also. Wah. The sec 1s the best luh. They thought they screwed up their performance, so they bought pizza for us. SO NICE RIGHT! Omg, last time when we were in sec1, we don't even care if we screwed up anot luh. This batch gave me an impression that they are very responsible, and will make up a good batch in future. :D

Sec2s gift was PAD. HAHA. So useful! :D

Yeah, so, THANK YOU EVERYONE IN GZ TUAN THAT MADE THIS FAREWELL A SUCCESSFUL ONE! :D <33

ends at Friday, September 11, 2009

Wednesday, September 9, 2009Y

Wah,suck man, blogger. Everything so messy! Shen jing bing! N levels Chinese, SS and Eng have officially ended. And tellyou what, i am going to fail my ss. Now i cannot depend on my combined humans to go sec 5! Must depend on POA, chinese, combined sci. If any of these cannot make it, i AM DEAD, really. Tsk, SS damn wasted lah. I very scared just because of ss then will pull down my lit marks, then i cannot go sec 5, cos the marks not enough to go, if i fail my poa or sci. ): Tsk. Preliminay marks was acceptable. HAHA. They rounded up to a whole number, as long as you have a decimal, regardless of less than 5 or more. HAHA. So nice right! That's why i JUST NICE can pass N level, with the score of : 19! HAHHAHAH! I WIN CHERYL! Actually supposed to retain. But i got 19 cos of the decimals. OKay, gotta go now. Blog somemore another time.

ends at Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Monday, July 27, 2009Y

Tsk, idk what's wrong wth blogger nowadays. It feels so weird blogging. Doesn't seems right. Can't change the size of font also. Tsk! Nevermind then. Suddenly just remembered the chorus of this song:

There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You

My eyes have been like that for 2 months plus, if anyone realised. I haven't went to see a doc since the last time after i went. Cos i knew i can't possibly go to a doc when my eye becomes like that. Let me emphasize on it again. IT IS NOT THE CAUSE OF CONTACTS. The reason why i refused to go to a doc, is that.. I am waiting for my God to heal me.I have been waiting for 2 months, and idk why. Sometimes i really feel very helpless, like when it becomes red, i couldn't do anything, except to face everyone like that. All i could do was to pray and pray and pray. But sometimes, after I pray, it gets worse the next day. So i really am confused and doubtful of God, during times like that. But here i am saying now, I WILL WAIT TILL THE LORD MY GOD HEALS ME.Lord, you said that if i had faith in You, just as small as a seed, i could move the mountains. I jest realised that i didnt have faith in you, that we so tiny as a seed. How useless can I be.

ends at Monday, July 27, 2009